__* 2.38 am .`+
Yesterday went drinking with Menel colleagues .. Eden , Zen & Crystal at Boat Quay Alcool . Afterwhich went to Power House till 6 am . Half conscious . Eden nearly got into a fight .. Pushed him away . Pushed the security away . Told Eden to point out the person he wanna beat , and I will chiong with him . He didnt . In the end , I pushed him into a cab and we went back Seng Kang . He asked me to accompany him up his place , I did not . Zen msg me telling me dont do impulsive things with Eden .. I replied him it's impossible . My stand is firm , Im keen in settling down with Lawrence and I will definitely not go up to any guy's place anymore . I told Eden that if he talks rubbish like that again , we will no longer be friends .. He apologised and call me sister .
Ah Bee called me a few days ago . So did Tiger , last week while I was alone at Lawrence's place . Both of them called telling me the same things , that they got into a fight at Taman Jurong not long ago .. Tiger got asked if I still wanna hug him like before . But I rejected him . He kept asking and repeated the same question .. But my answer for him is still the same , NO . now and forever he asked ? Yes , now and forever I no longer will go back to the past . & as for Bee , said that he's apologetic abt the past for breaking with me cause he's afraid that Tiger will mind that Im Ah Bee's gf . & he said he will wait for me .. He still wants to be together with me and stuffs like that . But .. I really felt nothing about it . I only treat them as normal friends now . There was a time when I deleted all CCK people in my phone list , cause I was really disappointed with their umpteen lies over and over again .. But since they chose to call me when they need someone to pour their sorrows to , I will still regard them as friends . No matter how bad they had treated me .. I will forgive and forget . But my heart .. Is purely towards Lawrence only .
Regarding Matthew . I did regret for not accepting his patch back while on the phone that night .. But seriously , I was really tired and upset on how he would only call me when he needs me , and couldnt be there for me as always when I need him or even miss him . In the end , I chose to let go of everything .. It was a heart-shattering incident which I could never be able to forget . But now .. Seeing him found his own happiness , Im happy for him too . The "hurt" kinda feeling , isnt that much already .. Guess things are gotten over and done with as time goes by .
THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥
I always thought I can forget you..
