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Friday, July 31, 2009
__* 12.22 am .`+

i may not be the one you had loved most in ur life ..
i may not be the one who had shared the most memorable past with you ..
i may not be the most adorable girlfriend you had .
i may not be the kind of obedient and gentle girl u wish you had .
i may not be the one to make you change and love me more than urself .
i may not be the one you had dote and spend the most on .
i may not be the most prettiest and perfect one among them .

but im the one who is loving you with every beat of my heart ..
trying to make changes for you every now and then ,
controlling my temper & attitude as much as possible which i'd nvr done so for anyone .
i love you ;
*since 140409 -




YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Friday, July 31, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Sunday, July 26, 2009
__* 11.24 pm .`+
zhijian will be working at parkway outlet next month .. there will be no one to cheer me up during work , when im down . there will be no one to hear me pour my sorrows to .. hais . nxt month a female in-charge will be working with me . today sales is not so good .. days without sales is unbearable , allows me to have time to let my imaginations run wild . for dont know what reasons , suddenly thought of the last scene when we're hugging downstairs my house .. when i was eating . & tears fell .. stress . running a slight fever now ..



YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Sunday, July 26, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Thursday, July 23, 2009
__* 11.30 pm .`+
in this relationship , i'd understand alot of things . things that werent taught in school , or by anyone else .. i realised i'd been very selfish . in the past , nobody ever tell me how he feels .. and now , i truly understand that break is no big deal . but to lose someone you love and not knowing what wrongs u'd done to cause the crack is the most stupid mistake .. day after day , everything accumulates and one day everything burst and u lose it all .. in the past , i'd been only thinking for myself . doing things i like , not thinking how the other party would feel .. today , we met . it was really a surprise .. cause i thought i had alrdy lost it all .. but in the end , i lost everything once more . im sorry .. sorry for not able to keep you by my side . sorry for alrdy lying to you on day one .. i know it's hard to gain back ur trust . but i will work hard .. i will make you believe what i said is true , to let you know that my heart has no room for anyone else but you .

in my life , there is someone whom i'd loved and never once let go even though our chapter alrdy ended 2 years ago . but after meeting you again after all these years .. you were the 1st one to truly capture my heart . to make me wanna make you happy .. when we were together , nobody else comes to mind anymore . and it's weird how i would miss you and wonder what ur doing when u were not beside me .. how i will think about the things you dislike , and avoid doing them . i thought after that someone left me 2 yrs ago , i would nvr find any other who could make my heart race .. but then i found you . everytime we quarrelled , nvr fails to bring tears and pain .. we nvr seems to compromise and get down into an agreement , cause im not those who will listen . im always so stubborn to wanna say what i want and not hearing you out .. but i'd been reminding myself every now and then , trying to make a change . after today's incident , made me realised i'd learnt alot from you .. really , thanks . even that i'd lost you again , but still i will always love you .. and no one will replace you . wait for you -



YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Thursday, July 23, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;
__* 3.03 am .`+
yesterday reached home at 3 plus . wanted to sleep , but couldnt sleep at all .. was lying on the bed just closing my eyes . tossing and turning in bed .. opened my eyes 3 times . the last time i opened my eyes , it's alrdy time to wake up for work .. it was raining in the morning , so is my heart . actually wanted to call zhi jian tell him that i wont be attending work .. but then , i think again . and tell myself not to let personal affairs get into work .. so with a pair of puffy eyes , i went to work . zhi jian asked me how come today like so listless and no strength to work ? what happened to my eyes .. is it ytd night drink too much water before going to sleep ? i told him no , my bf and i no more alrdy .. he asked why . i just said quarrelled , and he asked if im okay .

at workplace , the aircon suddenly keeps dripping water . and i told him the air con drip water .. he looked at me and asked , is the air con or are my eyes dripping water ? i said no lah siao .. but my nose turned sour . and i finally couldnt hold back the tears anymore .. i turned around , and tears started to roll down profusely . i walked straight to the toilet at the back .. tried my best to cool down , and wash my face . after coming out , we talked and slack as usual .. i was standing in front of him . he looked at me and said .. "there are 2 sides of you . 1 is the one i see everyday , always so crazy and laughing non-stop . the other is the 1 i see now , heartbroken and crying so hard .." i told him i suddenly feel very lost . really dont know what to do .. every off days also spent with him . but tomorrow .. i dont know . im alone .. and will be alone in future too . he kept consoling me asking me to cheer up .. making me smile , talking to me . for that , im really grateful .. he purposely blast a sad song for me to hear , tittled "数到三，一起放手" .. and he walked off and headed to the toilet . when he came back , he asked if just now got hear the song he played .. ya la , the song play so loud . deaf also can hear ..

anyway , after work didnt wanna go back home .. went to cine with my colleague to eat and watch movie . afterwhich then go home .. going sleep soon . damn tired and shag .. wish everything was a dream , but it isnt . but im still contented .. at least , we were able to last for 3 months plus . though we didnt make it through .. at least i'd once had him , and it's already enough . since im unable to give you happiness , let others do it then .. as long as ur happy , i too will be . 140409 - 210709


YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Thursday, July 23, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Wednesday, July 22, 2009
__* 2.06 am .`+
you were supposed to be my last chapter ..
after every efforts i'd tried to make things happen .
i thought fate brought us together ..
or maybe destiny had us fooled .



YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Wednesday, July 22, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;
__* 12.02 am .`+
right now, im at the lowest peak of my life. nobody understands.. nobody ever knows. but it's okay, cause after a big cry, everything will be back to square one.. i had take it before, and i can take it again. i believe tmr will be a better day..


YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Wednesday, July 22, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Sunday, July 19, 2009

言承旭 - 在KTV说爱你


朋友似乎有意不提起 原来你在这里
我的微笑太沉迷怜惜 也许你已忘记
微亮灯光下的你还是一样美丽
有没有一首K歌可以给我勇气
说句 对不起

麦克风在其他人手里 遥控器传给你
我点的歌慢慢往上移 越靠近 越犹豫
不是唱到一半的我假装忘旋律
只是写词人太细腻描述我和你
过去 揪着我的心

我的爱 回不去 我只能在KTV说爱你
散场之后抱着影子 哭泣
我的爱 播不停 整一首歌还在当年
爱情 只是现在你的眼睛 最远的距离

麦克风在其他人手里 遥控器传给你
我点的歌慢慢往上移 越靠近 越犹豫
不是唱到一半的我假装忘旋律
只是写词人太细腻描述我和你
过去 揪着我的心

我的爱 回不去 我只能在KTV说爱你
散场之后抱着影子 哭泣
我的爱 播不停 整一首歌还在当年
爱情 只是现在我的关系 最远的距离

我的爱 谁在意 我只能在KTV说爱你
却听见自己颤抖的声音
我的爱 没有你 这房间容不下我的伤心
因为你切歌的坚定 停止我呼吸




YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Sunday, July 19, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;
__* 12.50 am .`+
next month is Eric's wedding , which falls on a Saturday . will find means and ways to get a OFF that day no matter what .. first time got surrounding friend got married . will definitely attend cause he's my very good friend whom i treat as brother . hmm , pocket sure gonna have 1 big hole again ..

yesterday was late for work as usual . but i really got wake up early .. but the bus seems to take forever to arrive . then by the time i reach , it's alrdy 11 o'clock .. was supposed to reach at 10.30 to change pricings . then Zhi Jian was damn frustrated .. nagged at me again . but i got say back .. in the end , both of our faces got black like charcoal and didnt talk for quite some while . but after that , okay alrdy then he tell me dont always be late arbo later they dont want confirm me then very jialat liao .. haiis , sianz . anyway , this is the 4th month in this job . learned quite alot of stuffs alrdy .. just that still not very sure of the application for MioHome , cause my working place dont always got people wanna bundle up their plans into MioHome so it's quite hard to practise doing the spear . but i will fasten my pace and learn everything asap .. for the sake of pampering myself . now then i start to realise money is easy to spend but hard to earn .. sigh . =.=" i miss Matthew ..



YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Sunday, July 19, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Thursday, July 16, 2009
__* 12.10 am .`+
yesterday stayed at dar's place . afternoon quarrelled . cried . he then gave me a nickname called "Hu Hu" .. stupid . he sent me go report then go serangoon eat sushi tei .. he said , too bad today's not the exact date that we're celebrating our 3rd mth . ya , but nevermind .. at least we got eat something good . go back his place slack in the evening .. quarrelled again , but luckily made up as usual . sometimes minor things also will startled the flame .. but if 1 day nvr quarrel , will seems weird to me . maybe alrdy become a habit liao .. haas . at night go down his workplace , he went to help out . then we have our dinner tgt with eric .

tmr need to wake up early , go office there have nokia product training . after that still need go back work .. lame lor . tmr die die cannot late , cause all the managers got attend . sianz ..




YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Thursday, July 16, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Friday, July 10, 2009
__* 11.21 pm .`+
the past 2 days been staying at bf's place . actually last night wanted to go back home , but dar suddenly said "if only you can stay at my place tonight hor .." then he go tell his mummy that i'll be staying over again . haas , he's always so cute . when quarrel , then he will say later i go to work or report myself .. but in the end , he also got fetch me go . sometimes we will tend to quarrel over minor stuffs , cause our characters are very similar .. the food we like are almost the same too . both of us likes to eat cheese , prawns , chicken thigh , hot dog etc . so it's quite easy to choose what to eat when we go out together .. what's even coincident is sometimes as i was half way typing sms to him , i would receive his call or sms . then i told him , we're both thinking of each other at the same time .. hees . x=

at first when he often scolds me for overspending , for not thinking ahead , for wasting money on stupid things .. i really hate his naggings . but there's one day , he said this to me .. "if i dont care , i wouldnt have bother so much and waste my breath nag and nag at you ." then suddenly , i realised that i'd been taking this for granted . also , mistaken him .. i'd always thought whatever i do , will only make him angry or upset him . but im wrong .. he really cares . im sorry , and thanks alot . i guess he's the first guy who ever bother to scold me .. the rest , only kept quiet cause they pampered me too much . now i know how to manage my finance better , with him around .. =)

other couple's honeymoon period is at the beginning of their relationship . but ours , is vice versa . we quarrelled alot when we first became together .. almost everyday and each time we meet up , even never meet also can quarrel . but surprisingly , 4 more days will be our coming 3rd month anniversary .. seems like time flies by fast ; just a wink of the eye . i'll definitely be cherishing & loving him more each day .. may our bond never diminish , but grows stronger .





YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Friday, July 10, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Tuesday, July 07, 2009
__* 3.11 am .`+
just finish playing Dragonica with dardar , he help me do quest . haas .. so sleepy and sick , entire day sneezing like free only . tmr still got singtel training at 9 am , need to crawl up early . dont know can wake up or not .. time to sleep liao , if not sure panda again .. good night . =]



YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Tuesday, July 07, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Sunday, July 05, 2009
__* 11.29 pm .`+
yesterday was saturday . crowd came in late , and ended up knocking off at 11 pm .. made dar wait for me at bedok . he fetch me go meet his brothers they all , cause one of their birthday . went to serangoon eat ice cream .. lols . then go ktv pub drink and sing . didnt really feel bored cause dar didnt neglect me .. whenever he go , he also got inform me or ask me tag along . haas , im so attached to him . anyway , reach back his place at 3 plus .. slept at 4 am . this morning crawl up tgt at 10 plus , dar send me go work before he went to work .



YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Sunday, July 05, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Friday, July 03, 2009
__* 11.46 pm .`+
just reached home not long ago from work . yesterday was my off day and was spent together with dar .. went over to stay at his place after work . we quarrelled the next day .. but was alright in the end . he sent me go back home to change for reporting .. suddenly rain very heavy , so we stayed awhile at my place . after reporting , went back his place to slack . then went down raffles to meet his mummy together go enquire about his schooling stuffs .. afterwhich , went to eat nearby . first time see his mummy , abit uptight .. then when nervous keep laughing . so funny , haas . =x finish eating , then go walked around .. awhile later his mum left . and the 2 of us went to penisular plaza then to bugis walk walk . after that he bring me go chill out at a restaurant at hougang .. at first i thought he wanted to bring me go kopitiam instead , cause beside is kopitiam . lols .. dar fetch me back sengkang , then we slacked downstairs my place chatting for abt an hour .. before going home .

tmr working again .. so tired . sick of being late , being nagged . but sometimes really very lazy to wake up in the morning .. always rolled on the bed till i happy liao then crawl out of my cosy bed . next week got training again ! got pros & cons . good thing is can go out after training , bad thing is .. got 1 half day training , after training still need go back work . arghs .. stupid ! anyway , tmr after work meeting dar .. heex . miss him truck loads . nvr thought i would be able to find someone whom can shaken my heart again .. dont know what i'm gonna do if he's missing from my life someday ; hope that day will never come .




YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Friday, July 03, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Wednesday, July 01, 2009
__* 12.07 am .`+
yesterday after work , went to stay over at dar's place for the 1st time with his mum's approval . at night slacked with him and his friends downstairs his place .. morning accompany him to work then i went to polyclinic take mc .. afterwhich went back to his working place to stay awhile . went back home to change , wanted to meet bestie but in the end went out with my mum instead .. cause mummy didnt work today , somemore long time nvr go out walk walk with her . so mum and i went out in the evening to compass point walk walk .. i wanted to buy gold anklet . she wanted to buy earrings .. went to poh heng , but the place was crowded . so we went down to hougang instead . but before that , bought food for dar before we left .. also , introduce my bf to mummy . =]

i bought a gold anklet for $300 . mummy bought me a necklace plus an abacus pendant which cost her $350+ .. actually was around $800 , but cause i trade in my old gold necklace back to them which deduct $458 . hees .. loves mummy ! she really dotes me alot luhs . is she intiated to buy it for me , cause my old necklace's hook is spoilt .. then the poh heng no longer change hook for necklaces liao . so she said change everything at one shot then next time no need change again ler .. she didnt buy any earrings . all is buy for me .. afterwhich we went down to boon keng eat boon tong kee chicken rice . haas , this time i treated her .. also ordered beer to drink tgt . eat finish alrdy , took train back to seng kang .. then mummy go find aunty , and i went to find darling . slack awhile with dar , then he fetch me go home .

boy , my love for you is growing stronger everyday .
thanks for making efforts .. i can feel it .






YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Wednesday, July 01, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;