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Wednesday, October 27, 2021
__* 11.28pm -


Since nobody knows about this blog (I hope so.) Its okay if im feeling not alright, as long as you are happy with your current life and I will be okay.

I dont think you will ever cross my blog, because I dont think i had meant anything in your life anyway.. so you definitely wouldnt rmb that I had this blog.

The day that i know i will be transferred to Bugis, i really had lots of mixed feelings.. Bugis is good, because there are definitely more sales over there and my pocket wont feel so empty anymore. After being at Waterway Point for 3 years+, it was finally my turn to get transferred out.. WWP is just opposite my place of walking distance. Though the pay is miserable as I never got to hit target of 100% for quite long alrdy, and I dont have to wake up so early to travel all the way.. which means i can sleep till late. I can even walk back home just to have lunch and walk back to work.. 

But most importantly is… 
I will never have the chance..
to see you ever again.

Time really flies.. and I am alrdy at Bugis for 1 year plus, since transferred in Aug last year.

Just finished work and reached home. Good nights.



THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥

~ { Wednesday, October 27, 2021 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Tuesday, October 26, 2021
__* Hurts -

I stared hard at you, just to reassure that it really is you.. 
And i think you'd noticed. 
Because you looked back at me. 
And there was your wife, your little girl.. 
I tried hard pretending to look away. 
That was the 1st time i ever saw you at my workplace, a few years back. 

Today I cried so hard. 
Just sitting down and reminiscing the past.. from students time to adults. 
The necklace that you gave me with my name on it when we met through IRC, outside Popular at Kovan. 
How you kept me by your side, everywhere you go.. 
How you asked your mum if i could stayover at your place.. 
How you brought me along to have lunch with ur mum.. 
I still rmb you slept in my arms and fell asleep so soundly that you drooled. 
 And how we met each other again after losing touch for so many years.. 
一切像停格在那一瞬间。 

Sounds really crazy and stupid, to be still thinking about all these after 12 years.. 
and sometimes even dreamt of you.. 
I hate myself for letting you misundertood that i cheated, but i really didnt. 
I broke up with KW, before i even agreed to be with you. 
Because i didnt delete the past messages in my phone, and you saw them so you thought i played you out.

While we were together, we often quarrelled over trivial matters so insignificant that till now seriously I cant even remember what we had fought over with each other.. 

The last moment that we spent tgt, was quarrelling at your living room.. 
We both had nothing more to talk abt. 
I couldnt explain any further, because you didnt want to hear no more. 
You fell asleep on the sofa, with me weeping at the other end. 
After sitting for quite awhile, staring at you for the longest time.. 
I finally walked silently to the door and left. 
And i know that the hatred you had for me was so bad, that you deleted and blocked me after our broke up. 
So many years had past.. 
Though we were merely tgt for a few mths, but the memories were hard to forgo. 
Just want to say.. 
I am sorry, Matthew.

If there is any utmost regret in my life,
I would say that would be..
Losing you.


THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥

~ { Tuesday, October 26, 2021 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;