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Saturday, June 30, 2007

__* Ton Night . `+
yesterday was a crazy day , out at town with Ah Gong aka Justin and then along came his 2 friends later on ; Zhi Xian & JJ . at first meet Ah Gong in the afternoon at 2.30pm , planned to go Cineleisure watch movie .. but sorry i was late ! kept dragging the time as usual , idling at home .. so we finally met each other at 3 plus . hees ! im really apologetic . the first thing he said about me was .. "wah ah lian !" . arghs , stupid .. cause he also ah beng . BODOH !

anyway , we booked the slot for the movie , "Transformer" , at 4.15pm .. as it was early , we went down to the basement food court and have our lunch . talk a little craps .. then after eating , went outside to smoke then enter straight into the threatre . the show was quite alright , except for the long naggy conversations in the beginning . after watching movie , Ah Gong said that he actually wanted to watch one of the horror movies instead .. finish watching then he tell me this . then he suggested to catch another movie later on .. which is obviously the one he wanted . and we both agreed .

went outside to smoke again , then walked to Fareast Plaza . it was drizzling out there . then i kept saying , "wah lao raining sia , how ?" haas . after that went to Ngee Ann and Heeren walk walk .. go shop for his clothes and flip-flops ! afterwhich took bus to PS , going to watch movie again . but we reached there , dont have the horror movie .. so we walked to Cathy Cineplex to check it out . and then again , dont have the movie .. so nevermind , we decided to watch "My Wife Is A Gangster" instead which is at 11.20pm . went over to Parklane to play billard as there is still some time ..

after billard , went back for the movie .. during watching , Ah Gong fed me drink . haas . then made me so paiseh , i thanked him .. the show was like a comedy . overall , considered not bad .. so next , we went to Paradiz Centre to look for his friends ; Zhi Xian & JJ . they were playing pool . waited for them to finish their pool , we went to the food court located beside 97 to eat supper .. finish eating , we walked back to Cineleisure . going to the highest level to book room and watch movie then slack again .. before that , we played a few matches of table soccer . i was clumsy .. kept letting the ball slide away . then they kept laughing .

okay , so we watched "The Maid" . though see before already but nevermind see again . they on the volume until as if the entire room was going to explode .. was stupid and also scary due to ear-deafening bass . it was really fun hanging out with them cause they were simply lunatics . and i became one of them .. fooled around so crazily and dont even care if it is to make urself look like a clown in front of so many people . this is what i had been seeking so hard for , in friends .. very long ago . and at that moment , i felt that i had really found these people who do belong to the category im in ..

you cant imagine what it's like to be putting on an act and fight with ur friends inside the mrt station .. screaming and shouting like nobody's business , disregard what others might think or look upon you as , simply doing the things you wanna do . i just lack of such courage , because i dont have such friends who would be daring enough to do so either .. but whatever it is , im just glad that god had given me a chance to once join in the fun and be CRAZY .

* Ah Gong taking Ah Toot's snap-shot .

after my programs ended for the town , i went back SK Rivervale Plaza go meet Gabriel have breakfast as it was already 7 o'clock in the morning ! haas .. finally after breakfast , reached home at 8 plus . it was a pleasant day for me indeed . but later still need go find Tiger at CCK .. tired . havent catch a wink yet ! now the time is 11.20am . gotta go prepare go out again ..

~ { Saturday, June 30, 2007 }
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Thursday, June 28, 2007

__* Isolation . `+
Today I stay at home again . These few days after coming back from CCK , I did not went out except just going nearby places to have dinner with SK people .. Don't know why , really not in the mood to go out . Sorry Ivan , always putting ur aeroplane and bombing you . Maybe is cause' Im kinda broke now , that's why my life is somehow gone .. But Im worried that next month when I start working , things will change soon . I would have not much time for my boy already . What's more , his tagging might drop soon .. That's what I fear most , I guess . Sigh . But I always tell myself that if he's not meant to be , then let it go ..

Im so confused . Wish I could just be independent and stop relying on others . But for the entire day , I did not contact him at all .. And he too , didn't either . I did thought of him but I dont wish to get too committed this time .. Perhaps it may be unfair to him , but I just wanna play it safe .


Friday should be meeting Justin .. Just now chatted with him on the phone for hours . Haas , that BODOH "Ah Gong" .. Make sure I spin him inside washing machine on that day ! Btw tomorrow will be going to dye hair at Hougang , afterwhich might be meeting Ivan then . Now going to turn in , tmr gotta wake up quite early . And apologies Jolyn , next time meet you slack .. Today lazy to walk so far . Nitey nitex ! =]

"Friends often say I damn flirt , don't believe that Im the kind of girlfriend who would stick with her bf and stay faithful . It really doesnt matters to me how they look upon me as .. Cause as long as I know my conscience is clear . I really wanted to be a good girlfriend , and I did . But that aint enough to keep things going .. I have no idea whether if the other party would share the same thinking as I do . Just hope that this time round , it will last ."

~ { Thursday, June 28, 2007 }
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

__* Rainy Day . `+
Tiger pass his bike practical 3.1 already . Guess it wont be long before he got his own license ! Kambateh ohs . And oh yah , he just nagged me not to anyhow run again .. Dont know why he so worried for ? I'm a good girl .

Btw , I just came back home not long ago .. Was at nearby slacking with friends . At first went to CP meet Jacob la kopi . Then met Gabriel and his friend at Mac , so decided to ask him later go our place downstairs drink and chill out .. After drinking a few cans of beer at RP , we was about to leave and go home . Just then his friends called and said that they're at the plaza , so we walked back and join the 4 of them . When they saw me , everyone was saying .. "Ehh ! Butterfly ~ You also here ah .." Lolx - machiam so happy to see me sia . Haas . I also miss them , long time no see too .

*p/s : Jacob , apologies for not being able to accompany u for long .

All of us had our supper over there together . 1 of them is really kinda crazy , kept doing funny stuffs making the whole lot of us laugh like mad .. Did enjoyed myself today with their accompany . Just now , snatched Kum Hong's PSP and play puzzle bobble ! The rest of the funny things shan't mention , if not will be too long-winded .. Hees .

Just now suddenly rain till so big . We wanna go home also cannot .. So no choice , have to hang around inside Mac . Anyway , Ivan was kinda sweet . He was afraid that I couldn't get back home cause of the heavy downpour , so he wanted to come down from Hougang and drive me back home .. But the distance from the plaza to my house is just across the road junction . Thus , I rejected his offer and asked him turn in early as the next day he still gotta work ..

Before Ivan went to sleep , he kinda confessed his feelings . But .. I'm uncertain . Well , guess I won't be taking him in . Just wanna treat him as my "elder brother" for now .

Alright . So in the end , reached home at around 2 plus after the rain stops pouring so heavily ..

~ { Tuesday, June 26, 2007 }
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Monday, June 18, 2007

__* My Boy ; Tan Zhi Xiang . `+
He does NOT ..

hold your hands while walking .

walk beside you all the time .
hug you to sleep through the night .
do sweet-talkings .
cook for you cause he's lazy to do so .
lay his hands on household chores .
wash any of the dishes after eating .
save your name as "dear" in his phone .
take pictures with you .
display your photo in his phone .

BUT at least , he does ..

spoon-feed you when ur lazy to lift ur fingers .
buy tibits for you when he knows it's ur fav .
tell dirty jokes making you laugh like mad .
piggy-back / carry you when ur lazy to walk .
massage for you when ur feeling tired .
show concerns over ur whereabouts .
always hug you every now and then .
kiss you on the lips before he goes to work .
remind you not to hang out with guys .
take the initative to sms / call you first .
bring you closely with him whenever he goes .

Last but not least ,
he would simply NAGS at you for the entire day when you sneak out without telling him .. [=.=]" *pouts ! -

`````~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`````

No matter how unromantic this guy may be , he'll always be my one & only precious .
I do hope that someday , my feelings for him will surpass the past memories hidden in my heart ..

# o3 more days , to our 2nd mth . And counting ..

~ { Monday, June 18, 2007 }
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Saturday, June 16, 2007

__* Teddy Bez . `+
Sorry darling , I told a lie today . Didnt play pool with Juliet . Went to meet Wei Jie & Ah Long in the evening at Bugis .. Afterwhich slacked at Starbucks , waiting for their friend Jia Qian & his gf to come . Then walked around at village . Went to find Xue Li at her workplace for a while .. Fooled around with her . Was fun disturbing her . I missed the times hanging together . Anyway , went to Geylang Sinma Live Seafood Restaurant with them eat frog porridge .. As it was Jia Qian's gf birthday , they ordered quite a few other dishes as well . Quite nice and the price was reasonable . After eating , they planned to go town watch movie but my time was tight .. Gotta rush back home change my shoes for clubbing , so they send me back before moving on with their plans .

Yi Bin jio me go St James with his friends . Did not go in the end , cause I don't know how to appreciate Salsa music . Went clubbing at Teddy Bez with Eric , Derrick and Daniel at M. Sultan .. Techno tiu . At first couldnt find the place , cause it was kinda isolated from the rest of the clubs .. But luckily saw my ex-bf , Adrian Ong . He working over there so he showed us the way . When we reached there at ard 12 , the place was quite cold and empty . But 15 mins later , lots of people came swarming in as if the cover charge is free .. Anyway , the funny thing is that the dance floor was unoccupied . Still remember last time at 'Rush' , everyone used to fight over the 'mirror' in front of the dance floor . Yet it's vice versa now ..

The 4 of us ordered 2 jugs of beer . After drinking finish , we went over to join the crowd .. Almost everyone was leaning on the walls at the pathway , looking out to the dance floor seeing if anyone dares to dance in front of so many people . It's a really funny scene .. But seems like there's only 1 or 2 bold guys dancing . So Eric , Derrick and I decided to join in the fun and be 'Superstar' while Daniel helped to look after my belonging ! *Lols . And guess what ? The 3 of us were the only ones dancing in the middle .. The rest of the bengsters and liansters only danced a little , hiding at the very far end . Was a little bored , cause the songs played were so old-skool . Nevertheless we did enjoyed ourselves .. DANCING .

Eric suggested to go Double O after that , but the age requirement for ladies is 21 . Geez ! Thanks man .. Sorry brothers , spoil ur mood . So instead we went over to the ktv pub called 'BEDS' located at where previous 'Rush' was . Ordered one barrier of beer , played interesting games , sing song , play pool .. Too bad didnt manage to make Daniel become merlion , but nevermind next time we will ! After ktv pub , went nearby coffeeshop eat 'Bak-Kut-Teh' . Chatted awhile then they headed back home as tomorrow they all gotta work . I went to join Jimmy for rouding .. Happened to see my secondary school-mate inside the rouding group . Roud till 5 plus in the morning then go home .

~ { Saturday, June 16, 2007 }
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

__* My Philosophy . `+
Finally going back to the society after idling my life away for a year plus . Will be starting afresh and adapting to work on Thursday at Toa Payoh . And once again , back to where I belong initially ; Mobile Trade . Yesterday went back home from Tiger's place in the afternoon . It started to pour as usual .. Never fails to rain whenever I leave from his place but not a single raindrop would be spotted when I'm at his place . Kinda weird uh ? Perhaps god knows what's up to my sleeve after I return home .. That's also the particular reason why Tiger refuses to let me go home .

Frankly speaking , almost all my guys preferred me to stay by their sides rather than going back to hang out with my group of buddies . That's because they think that I would be led astray if I'm not being 'supervisored' within their vicinity . To others , it may be known as depriving of your freedom and being kept in a 'lock-up' . In fact , this is not what it seems to me .. It would only makes me feel that the guy is plainly insecure , that's all . That is why I would mostly obey my guy to let him know that my heart is always with him . But if any of the conditions is unreasonable , then I would definitely fight my way through no matter what it takes .. Cause' I do still have my little persisting stand .

Anyway , tomorrow gonna accompany Gabriel for his interview . Afterwhich should be meeting Tiger .. If there's no available jobs at Lot 1 , then I would most probably be proceeding for work on Thursday .

~ { Wednesday, June 13, 2007 }
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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

__* SEALED . `+

Forgotten ? Or maybe not ..
I no longer harbour hatred in my heart .
Cause' at least the memories shared ,
were once beautiful .

~ { Tuesday, June 12, 2007 }
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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

__* Manipulated . `+
These days have been evolving round the same stuffs over and over again . My life had always been the same .. Didnt hang out with my kakis anymore . They still asked me out for drinks occasionally , even though I have seldom contact them .. This , I felt kinda awkward and awful . It's not that I dont wanna hang out with my friends , just that I dont have the capability to .. I don't wish to rely on u guys for my expenses and such . Thanks , but Im really sorry . Please try to understand .. I have never forgotten anyone of you .

Xiao Bai called today , asking me if I wanna go "Yew Ee" . Of course I did not want to . He also told me that Darick is on his home leave .. It's stupid that his friends are still telling me things abt him . Darick gave Yo Ee Godfather my contact .. No wonder he's been calling me nowadays . But I did not pick up . I did not want to have anything to do with Darick or whoever that's related to him ..

I just want to move on with my own life . Yes , It's been tough going thru what Im still feeling for him till now .. But I swear to get him outta my mind completely someday . I cant show what's really inside of me . It's a pain having to hide ur true self .. It aint easy putting on a disguise in front of everyone else , but Im doing it . I just dont wish to reveal the weak side of me . That's the reason behind my laughters .. Not because Im nuts .

~ { Tuesday, June 05, 2007 }
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