__* 1.40 am .`+ The day before he called in the middle of the night .. I went home alone as usual after work . In the bus , listening to the songs in my hp .. Then memories rushed back . & tears rolled down profusely .. I thought everything is all over and done with . I thought I had already left everything behind .. I simply stopped talking about him , stopped mentioning his name and anything that concerns . Realised I'd been pushing myself too hard to move on .. So hard that Im deceiving myself and everyone else . I could have a smile hanging 24/7 on my face , pretend I aint feel nothing .. But at the end of the day , an empty shell is what's left of me .