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Wednesday, September 30, 2009
__* 1.24 am .`+
It's still very hard to coop with my current life, everything seems so empty without him by my side. I thought I was strong enough to handle things on my own, I thought that I could be those type of say let go jiu let go person. But I dont know why.. Everywhere I go, I wish he was there with me. Every couple I see, I will miss him instead of like the past I will find some guys out there to be attached with, hoping they can give me happiness. Every Omnia phone I see, makes me feel like killing myself. Every road I see, makes me think of flashing images of me on his bike. Every passing motorbikes, makes me wanna turn back and see if it's him.. Each time I walked pass my block downstairs, are scattered memories of us sitting there chatting or his bike parking there, with him sitting down by the pavement playing car racing game on his phone while waiting for me.

Reached home just now, lied on my bed. Suddenly he came to mind.. & I changed back my hp wallpaper to our past picture. Tears rolled down.. I went to bathe. While bathing, I looked at the surrounding and it's really very spacious and weird. Reminds me of the past when the both of us were squeezing in a small bathroom together, I will scrub his back, help him wash hair, squeeze toothpaste for him after I finish brushing my teeth. Almost everything, he would be there by my side.. Even moving around the house, I will hold his hands and walked behind him. I remember he always like to shout "Bi" very loudly, no matter is regarding important or silly stuffs. Especially when Im doing my own things or watching cartoon, once he's hungry or thirsty sure will shout for me.. And he always behave like a small boy, asking for hugs with both his arms wide open. During night time, he will snuggle onto the bed next beside me and dug himself into my arms cuddling me tightly.. There was once, when I hugged him to sleep and the next morning I woke up seeing him drool on me.

Anyway, after I finish bathing. I saw a Sms and missed call from him.. And it's the "dont know how many times" that coincidently when I miss him terribly and surprisingly he will message or call me on that day. Sigh.. Simply miss everything, yet feeling so helpless and handicapped.




THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥

~ { Wednesday, September 30, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;