__* 11.42 pm .`+
Despite all the things I'd done, tried to put in efforts, to make him stay, to make him understand how I felt.. He said that our thinkings are worlds apart. Last meal with him, controlling tears from falling.. No, Im not upset. For everything I'd done.. He thinks that Im simply nonsensical. Efforts made. Tears shed. Pain felt. No Im not upset.. I can dont think about money. I can easily find someone out there to pay for my expenses, but I did not. I'd rather be alone. Pay everything myself. From the beginning to the end, I'd nvr liked to rely on anyone. Cause I know if I do, I'd be in deeper loss than simply just out of love. Maybe cause age catches up, that is why I'd understand that one cant force to love.. Even that I really love you, I wont resort to begging you to stay. Your heart is not with me.. And it hurts even more to sink deeper. Although now, it do hurts.. But it's still bearable. Maybe that's what part and parcel of life is.. Im accepting things the way they are now. Eric Bro said, after a while I'd definitely be attached again very soon.. I just laughed together with them. They dont know how persistent I am this time.. So let time proves. I'd rather they think that Im always happy-go-lucky than sulking my problems and crying my heart out like in the past.. I nvr want to bother anyone with my problems. Im old enough alrdy. Im sick and tired of finding love in every guys I met, thinking that they will give me happiness.. Sad to say, I've changed.
Seasons may change, but never my heart.
THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥
I always thought I can forget you..
