__* 12.10 am .`+ this is the dont know how many days i'd been cooping myself at home after work , ever since the last met up . every night been sleeping at past 4 am , then wake up at 9 am in the morning for work .. everyday feeling very tired during work . thought of sleeping early every night .. but always fail to do so . cause once reach back home , then no mood to sleep .. so just stay online till late . sometimes just stare into the blank doing nothing like a total idiot . everyday only eat less than half a meal .. colleagues always say i very skinny but i dont really care . last night i finally look closely at myself in the mirror , suddenly realised that i'd really slimmed down alot . my waists are so small-sized that im starting to feel awful .. and i could even see the shape of my rib cages surfacing on the skin . machiam can play guitar alrdy .. lols . thin until like no money to eat .. but actually is not much appetite . entire mind just filled with work , work and work .. earn more money and dont think of anything else anymore . but im so tired ..