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Thursday, July 23, 2009
__* 3.03 am .`+
yesterday reached home at 3 plus . wanted to sleep , but couldnt sleep at all .. was lying on the bed just closing my eyes . tossing and turning in bed .. opened my eyes 3 times . the last time i opened my eyes , it's alrdy time to wake up for work .. it was raining in the morning , so is my heart . actually wanted to call zhi jian tell him that i wont be attending work .. but then , i think again . and tell myself not to let personal affairs get into work .. so with a pair of puffy eyes , i went to work . zhi jian asked me how come today like so listless and no strength to work ? what happened to my eyes .. is it ytd night drink too much water before going to sleep ? i told him no , my bf and i no more alrdy .. he asked why . i just said quarrelled , and he asked if im okay .

at workplace , the aircon suddenly keeps dripping water . and i told him the air con drip water .. he looked at me and asked , is the air con or are my eyes dripping water ? i said no lah siao .. but my nose turned sour . and i finally couldnt hold back the tears anymore .. i turned around , and tears started to roll down profusely . i walked straight to the toilet at the back .. tried my best to cool down , and wash my face . after coming out , we talked and slack as usual .. i was standing in front of him . he looked at me and said .. "there are 2 sides of you . 1 is the one i see everyday , always so crazy and laughing non-stop . the other is the 1 i see now , heartbroken and crying so hard .." i told him i suddenly feel very lost . really dont know what to do .. every off days also spent with him . but tomorrow .. i dont know . im alone .. and will be alone in future too . he kept consoling me asking me to cheer up .. making me smile , talking to me . for that , im really grateful .. he purposely blast a sad song for me to hear , tittled "数到三，一起放手" .. and he walked off and headed to the toilet . when he came back , he asked if just now got hear the song he played .. ya la , the song play so loud . deaf also can hear ..

anyway , after work didnt wanna go back home .. went to cine with my colleague to eat and watch movie . afterwhich then go home .. going sleep soon . damn tired and shag .. wish everything was a dream , but it isnt . but im still contented .. at least , we were able to last for 3 months plus . though we didnt make it through .. at least i'd once had him , and it's already enough . since im unable to give you happiness , let others do it then .. as long as ur happy , i too will be . 140409 - 210709


YOU TOOK MY HEART ALONG ♥

~ { Thursday, July 23, 2009 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;