Is happiness not here to stay again ? Even if it is , I'd brought everything upon myself . What I need to do now is to salvage before it's too late .. I really hate the feeling of remorsefulness for not doing those things I should have done , to keep someone by my side . Sometimes I just hope there could be somebody beside me , & I wish it was you . But things nvr seems to work out right .. Im tired of all the quarrellings . It's not that I like to flare my anger , maybe it'd alrdy been a habit for the past . Im trying hard to change .. But nobody knows . Maybe you need to understand , some things cant be changed just overnight . I really need some time .. Sigh .