__* 4.49 am .+
have you realised , our honeymoon period seems to be over .. it's somehow saddening that we're almost quarrelling every now and then . sometimes i really have the urge to give up and walk off just like that . but , i did not . cause i really cherish our relationship and wish to put in efforts to change the things they are right now . the reason behind those inevitable quarrels is mainly cause the both of us were too strong-headed .. at times , nobody seemed to be willing to take one small step back . but also , you didnt had enough trust in me .. if you had , then you wouldnt often called to check me up . i gave you freedom and what you deserved .. i dont doubt ur whereabouts or whatever that you're doing . it's not that i dont bother or care , is just that i chose to believe you're alrdy old enough to know what ur doing and will be responsible for own actions .. i went back home for i longed to see my family & friends .. also , to take a break from everything . same issues over and over again in my love-life , and that is .. i need more space to breathe . to be able to hang out with my friends and stuffs like that .. being together , doesnt mean you have to possess and stick with each other everyday .. know something ? sometimes i wish to think of you , whenever ur not beside me .. but i cant . why ? cause ur always calling me up every now and then .. that i felt so tied-down and stressed . i couldnt even do my own stuffs .. imagine , soon i'd be working . might be having only 1 day off per week if i enter the salesline .. by then we wouldnt even have much time together , to watch online movies , eat nuggets as we're walking , go out shopping , splurging on food etc . i really hope you'd be more dependent on yourself .. sorry for being defiant and disobeying the things you wish i had done so . cause i do have my own thinkings and opinions too .. im no longer a small girl who'd nods and agrees to whatever others say . please understand ..
i love you for who you are , and i always do my best to accept all ur habits no doubt good or bad . i dont see anybody else in you .. remember this . and one thing i'd thought it over , i think i wont choose to work admin job cause im really not good at it .. moreover , it's really not my interest . for my thinkings , if wanna work then make sure it's something that i like and interested in .. gotta plan further for the long run , i dont wish to dally my life away anymore . even if it is to stand through long hours , at least i enjoy my job and it's all that matters ..
MY HEART'S WHERE EVER YOU ARE ♥
I always thought I can forget you..
