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Thursday, November 13, 2008
__* 1.57 am .`+
suddenly nobody nags at me , feels so uncomfortable and weird . i will miss him & i dont know why ? he calls me Bao bei , but nvr once did i ever call him back any sweet nicks . from the beginning till the end of our complicated relation , i had nvr done so . his last message sent at night few days ago was "Bao bei. You must be sleeping right now. Miss you alot Sia. Very long never hug you and sleep le. This Friday let me hug you and sleep k? Night. Muackz."

and then ytd he told my Bestie in MSN that he's going to give up on me ler .. which i think he's really trying to do it . cause he didnt contact me anymore .. well . okay lor , what can i say ? ever since someone came out from prison that day , i broke off all relations with guys .. and i patiently waited for his return . but .. he nvr came back .. i gave up my happiness .. i gave up guys who really loved me for who i am .. and i waited in vain . we were together for just 4 mths .. waited mentally for a year , waited physically for months .. i am stupid . really foolish .. to give up love because of him . thats why i dont expect people to still wanna continue waiting for me to go back by their sides , because i myself is selfish .. i know . i dont deserve all these lovings and dotings .. im just an idiot who dont deserve love .

i told KW that i feel a little upset .. cause after my Bestie got new job and our life will be very different . by then our friendship would gradually drift apart and we wont be so close as before ler .. he told me that everyone needs to work to earn money . everyone got their own life and things to do .. cant possibly everytime stick together , even best friends . as long as ur heart got her as ur best sister , you can still meet up occassionally when free ..

ya , this i agreed . but even if the entire world is changing .. i wont be . so Bestie , hope when u got ur new friends .. u still will remember me . i love you , Best Friend .. =)

~ { Thursday, November 13, 2008 }
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