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Thursday, October 02, 2008
__* 11.01 pm .`+
didnt meet CW as planned again . cause dont know how to face him .. instead of seeing him and causing more hurt & sufferings , i'd rather not . i do miss the past too .. but i will not turn back anymore . i stayed home the entire day , only went downstairs have dinner with my neighbour Gabriel . nowadays not much appetite .. one meal is enough to last me for the entire day , somemore everytime only eat one quarter of the food then throw liao . also dont know why dont have mood to eat .. maybe im feeling terrible inside too . keep smoking .. even smoke till headache still continue to puff away .

im really sorry .. i know you tried ur best to give ur everything .. to make me happy , not to think about the past . always think of programs , always wanna bring me out together with ur friends .. everyday give me morning call without fail , even if it is to stay awake and not sleep just to call me wake up for work .. always come down causeway find me .. i know de . i just kept mum but it doesnt mean i dont know how much u did for me . forcing myself to cast you away , i dont feel any better either .. but i really dont know what i need and want . maybe i just want nothing and nobody else to step into my life again ..

~ { Thursday, October 02, 2008 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;