__* 11.14 pm .`+ in the morning actually wanna go fetch him , but his brothers said not to go . if wanna go , then go ourselves .. i dont know why they dont want girls to go . haiis . nevermind , maybe it's all fated .. after all those efforts of changing my off day and such , it's all gone to waste . waited for so long .. but end up also nothing . really very upset .. Ah Boy said , "if you miss him , msg him .. dont later next time then regret why you never do this and that in the past ." i told him that if we're meant to be , we'll be . he alrdy told me he will give me an answer when he's out .. if he nvr contact me , then i wont bother him ler . i dont want myself to look like a fool holding on .."
for now , i really need time to cool down .. a space for myself . to think what i really want .