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Monday, September 27, 2010

These days been drinking non-stop.. Even if Im very shag, I would wanna go drink. That day went drinking till 4 am then next day late for half an hour.. Luckily got Ben help me cover. Tmr gotta reach office at 9 am, actually intend to sleep early.. Cause just now purposely nvr go drink then thought will be tired wanna rest at home. Then expected, cannot sleep.. Sianz.



THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥

~ { Monday, September 27, 2010 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Friday, September 24, 2010
__* 2.38 am .`+
Yesterday went drinking with Menel colleagues .. Eden , Zen & Crystal at Boat Quay Alcool . Afterwhich went to Power House till 6 am . Half conscious . Eden nearly got into a fight .. Pushed him away . Pushed the security away . Told Eden to point out the person he wanna beat , and I will chiong with him . He didnt . In the end , I pushed him into a cab and we went back Seng Kang . He asked me to accompany him up his place , I did not . Zen msg me telling me dont do impulsive things with Eden .. I replied him it's impossible . My stand is firm , Im keen in settling down with Lawrence and I will definitely not go up to any guy's place anymore . I told Eden that if he talks rubbish like that again , we will no longer be friends .. He apologised and call me sister .
Ah Bee called me a few days ago . So did Tiger , last week while I was alone at Lawrence's place . Both of them called telling me the same things , that they got into a fight at Taman Jurong not long ago .. Tiger got asked if I still wanna hug him like before . But I rejected him . He kept asking and repeated the same question .. But my answer for him is still the same , NO . now and forever he asked ? Yes , now and forever I no longer will go back to the past . & as for Bee , said that he's apologetic abt the past for breaking with me cause he's afraid that Tiger will mind that Im Ah Bee's gf . & he said he will wait for me .. He still wants to be together with me and stuffs like that . But .. I really felt nothing about it . I only treat them as normal friends now . There was a time when I deleted all CCK people in my phone list , cause I was really disappointed with their umpteen lies over and over again .. But since they chose to call me when they need someone to pour their sorrows to , I will still regard them as friends . No matter how bad they had treated me .. I will forgive and forget . But my heart .. Is purely towards Lawrence only .
Regarding Matthew . I did regret for not accepting his patch back while on the phone that night .. But seriously , I was really tired and upset on how he would only call me when he needs me , and couldnt be there for me as always when I need him or even miss him . In the end , I chose to let go of everything .. It was a heart-shattering incident which I could never be able to forget . But now .. Seeing him found his own happiness , Im happy for him too . The "hurt" kinda feeling , isnt that much already .. Guess things are gotten over and done with as time goes by .

THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥

~ { Friday, September 24, 2010 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Monday, September 20, 2010

在我以为我们刚会有结果时。。从你朋友口中,我无意间发现原来我才是你们的第三者。你对我说你们已经分手了。。我竟然还以为是真的。我任然的相信你。在你选折她与我之间,你放弃了我。。我原本可以渐渐复原,但你却一次又一次的欺骗我。。其实我可以很自私的破坏你们的感情,但我并没有这样做。因为当时的我,因为她,真的好难受。。所以我可以体会,当心爱的人竟被另一个女孩横刀夺爱的时候。。是多么的无可奈何时。。我竟然心软了。我退出了。看见你原有的那些关怀与备质。。原属于我的一切。。却都是她的。。心中就难免有不少的曲折。我并没有怪你。。我只能不停地折备自己没有用,没办法挽留你的心。。所以她才会有机可趁。我因为你的母亲不喜欢我成天游手好闲,而去找份正荡的职业。。而因此没法抽空来陪你,所以我们才因此疏远。你不断的提醒我叫我等着你,但你又到底为我付出了多少?一点都没有。自私的使终是你。你叫我等你,而你却骗了我。。还暗地里跟她在一起。我想请问。。这些日子,我在你心里到底算些什么?既然不想在一起,何必一直玩弄我的感情。。我真的好失望。

虽然事情已过了许久,但希望你能真心的对待她。不要再辜负她了。。虎。



THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥

~ { Monday, September 20, 2010 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Monday, September 13, 2010
__* 11.33 pm.`+
那些女孩教我的事


要不是你让想念猖狂打破天窗
我不会发现枕头上的荒凉
以为你就是故乡
却变成我的流浪
谁的傍晚是谁的天亮

十九八七六十六亿人同时狂欢
五四三二一个人倒数孤单
回忆的拥挤广场
假装你还在身旁
就像你最爱依赖我的肩膀

第一行诗的狂妄
第一首歌的难忘
第一次吻你的唇
你的倔强
第一颗流星灿烂
第一个天真愿望
第一个诺言美丽的荒唐

你叫我爱的善良
你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘
伤心太伤
那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问
想念的 想念的 想念的你
怎么样

爱情是信仰
或只能是旅途风光
那女孩带我漫游一次天堂
你教我怎么爱上
却没教怎么遗忘
让我的阳光都变成了泪光

第一行诗的狂妄
第一首歌的难忘
第一次吻你的唇
你的倔强
第一颗流星灿烂
第一个天真愿望
第一个诺言美丽的荒唐

你教我爱的善良
你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘
伤心太伤
那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问
想念的 想念的 想念的你
怎么样

第一行诗的狂妄
第一首歌的难忘
第一次吻你的唇
你的倔强
第一颗流星灿烂
第一个天真愿望
第一个诺言美丽的荒唐

你教我爱的善良
你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘
伤心太伤
那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问
想念的 想念的 想念的你
怎么样

那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问
想念的 想念的 想念的你
怎么样




THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥

~ { Monday, September 13, 2010 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Tuesday, September 07, 2010
__* 4.43 am. `+
It'd been long since my tears fall ..
And I promised this will be the last.



THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥

~ { Tuesday, September 07, 2010 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Saturday, September 04, 2010
__* 2.04 am. `+
Had been drinking these days.. Now kinda into Baron, as we have a Baron Family. & Im considered fortunate to be able to mingle with my seniors and managers.. We had our drinking sessions once in a while when either one of us felt like drinking. Though not all the time all of us could turn up, but it's understandable lahs. Next month going Bintan with June & Crystal. And Crystal had alrdy help me taken approval from the Baron King, my manager. Cant wait for our mini get-away trip.. Ytd Crystal and I went to Punggol Marina for our drinking sessions. Was supposed to leave at 1 but ended up leaving at around 3 instead.. Damn shag. Was quite enjoyable as I got to sing quite a lot of songs. Tmr will be another drinking day I guess.. Cause Jalan Besar there still got balance. And Im proud of myself no matter how drunk I may be, tmr sure turn up for work. For this 1st half of the year, I had not taken any MC yet.. & Im still aiming for this goal to be ZERO MC. Then got bonus to take also.
Recently working at AMK. Friends at Bedok really miss me sial.. All ask why Im not at Bedok alr. Haas. Anyway, good news is I'd had my wish granted. I wont be staying at Bedok for long.. Cause it had really been long enough. I would be post out to bigger outlets. But, the bad news is the reshufflement is postponed.. Haas. But I should really thank my managers for helping me out, if not I dont even know if I would ever be spotted being stucked at Bedok for so long alr..
Now then I realised that money is really important. Without money, you're just nothing in this realistic world. In the past, money had never been of any concern or issue to me.. Thats because Im spending every cent earned or even more. But as you start to grow older, you would know that though money is not everything but you could never live without it. No savings = 慢僈等死。
Sad to realise.. Im still lingering in the past and all those flashbacks are tearing me apart. It took me like, 3 years and it's still unforgettable. Like what they say, falling in love is easy but moving on is hard.. Even a few months of memories takes like a decade of my life.

THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY ♥

~ { Saturday, September 04, 2010 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;