__* 11.24 pm .`+
2 more days and it's his birthday.. but im not the one to be beside him to celebrate with him. when we were together, i thought we could last till his birthday.. and at least, also mine. haas. they asked, is it worth doing so much for him? i said i dont know. they asked, if one day i see him on the streets with someone new, how would i feel? will i cry? i replied them, yes i will cry. but it will give me the courage to give him up once and for all.. at least, will make me real hurt to stop loving him. though those things he said in the past is alr hurt enough.. but i guess 人是范溅的。only until i witness with my own eyes, then i will start believing that he has someone new. they said, you treat him good but you also dont know if he's attached now or if he's flirting or whatsoever.. yes. i will know nothing at all, if he choose not to tell. but as long as he choose to lie, i will continue believing in his lies.. dont ask me why. i dont know either, perhaps that's what the true meaning of "Love" is.. or let's just say im stupid.
"i just feel that though we had alr broke up for quite some while, and even after break up we could quarrel or be upset over certain issues ending up say that we will never contact each other anymore or whatever.. but in the end, either one of us will always contact each other after some time, and i will never fail to break my promise to myself that i will not think of you anymore. each time you call or msg, i wish i had more courage to move on and ignore.. but i just cant do it.. maybe it's because of boredom or loneliness that ur looking me up, or some other reasons which i may not know.. but seriously, i had always love you with each beat of my heart and that is something which nobody could ever replace since day one. if u think i aint real, try touching ur heart and maybe u'll see.."
. W E H T T A M ♥
I always thought I can forget you..
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