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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
__* 12.39 am .`+
today work with Bestie & Winter . nothing special , today our outlet is the top sales of all ! hees . finally , our efforts doesnt go to waste .. we will prove our worthy in work , wont let Boss see us down . work is work , play is play .. anyway , CW came down to pass me my clothings . Bestie said , if it's for Darick he wouldnt have done so .. like how he had dragged and dont want to return till now . true enough , when i asked Darick if my clothings are still with him .. he replied no more . it's okay , cause im not that pathetic enough to cant even afford a few clothings ! lol . so CW came down , and he gave me a small bottle of perfume in addition . i know that he's upset , i can somehow see it through his eyes .. it'll be the last time we'll ever meet , i guess . went for a short smoking break with him .. chatted for awhile , then went back to work ler . thanks for coming down to pass me my belongings .. take care . promise me that u'll continue to stay happy without me .. and move on to find a better girl who's truly worthy of ur love . sorry for everything .. im now getting my paid-back and what i deserved for my wrongs .

after work , Bestie , Guo Zheng , Sai Kit & me slack outside Causeway Point our usual spot . wait for last bus then go back home ler ..

yesterday i stayed up till 3 plus in the morning to read back my past blog entries . those .. regarding the past , while i was still with "Him" . & tears just cant help falling and falling , like a running tap . Brother was sleeping soundly , and i was weeping silently in front of the com like an idiot .. haas . well , but deep down i gotta convinced myself that he's alrdy gone ler .. though time and time again , i would mention his name to my friends . but when they give me a LJ face , i know im just thinking too much ..

" 1 year ago , you were all i ever need . friends all i never care a damn for .. only you . 24 hrs just you alone makes me contented .. happy or sad moments , we shared together with each other closely by our sides . together was never a easy task to begin with .. having to face gossips and disagreements , we managed to make it through them all . every morning before u go to work , nvr fail to kiss me on the forehead .. then i would wake up and lazily walked you to the door , hugging ur bolster in my arms , kissing you bidding goodbye . then walked back to ur room and sleep .. whenever i open my eyes , ur always the first one i see . cause when u come back home , u'll jump onto the bed and hug me .. awoken from my sleep , i would hugged you and say "dardar , u come liao ler ah .." then after that , we will go downstairs to have our lunch together .. when walking back to ur place , i always prowled onto ur back for no reason and ask u to run faster while piggy-back me . still rmb i always bully you .. when eat KFC , always lazy to dirty my hands . then will ask you to peel for me .. though unwilling , but u still did upon my wilful request . when thirsty at night , always ask u to walk out to take drinks for me no matter how tired u are or even that ur alrdy going to fall asleep .. everyday , always disturb dont let u sleep even that ur waking up early for work . ask you to talk and play with me .. then i would di-siao you for quite awhile before u finally get to sleep . when go out , u always ask if i wanna go along . if i dont want , then u would push away invitations from others and ask ur friends to come over ur place instead .. got 1 night i dreamt that you ran away with other girls , then i woke up crying . you woke up too , and hugged me in ur arms telling me not to think so much , it's just a dream .. no matter how broke u are , u'll always buy tibits for me to munch at night .. when buying tibits , u will always say want take what jiu take . then always end up buy alot .. even no money , u also will find ways not to let us starve . even times are hard , but u also wont say it out .. always keeping quiet , keeping everything to urself .. taking everything down . whenever my mood swings , ur always the one to be scolded .. and im always the one , to come and go as i like . though u often complain say i always run back home , i also nvr care abt you . and this .. i really regretted . when u asked me to accompany u to work in the morning , i should have . i should have .. spend more time with you , insteading of lazing around at ur place and sleep till afternoon . but when i finally went out to the society and start working for ur sake .. things changed . i didnt have enough time for you , and you turned to your peers . and everything wasnt the same as before ler .. but worse still , i didnt have enough trust on you . guess i had depend on u too much .. and .. this led to our parting . 1 year later .. we're almost the same as strangers . the only thing is , my heart is still feeling the same .. the same aching as before .. "

~ { Tuesday, October 14, 2008 }
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