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Wednesday, November 28, 2007
__* 1.15 am .`+
living without you .. breathing the air that you no longer shared , isnt something i can have a say in . losing you .. i cant choose .. can i ? it had been 3 months plus .. yet the feeling's still the same as when you just left . memories are there . and they never fail to stay with me each and every passing day .. why is it so hard to have my life back ? im struggling to keep myself occupied and pretending to fill my life to the fullest with different passer-bys . but the time frame kept rewinding back to the happy times when you were still here with me .. im vexed .

i no longer wish to harbour thoughts of you coming back .. but im still , upset . why ? sometimes i really wanna cry , but the tears would just well up in my eyes .. but , they never fall again .

~ { Wednesday, November 28, 2007 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Friday, November 23, 2007
__* 4.25 am .`+
It's been a long time since I blogged . Everything's still going on the same .. Im still working at Lot 1 . But next Monday going to go Causeway Point outlet already . Sigh .. New outlet opening , then have to go over arrange stocks .. Will be a busy week I guess . Sad that I have to leave Lot 1 ..
Losing all the regular customers and friends . And all the past memories will have to be placed aside in my heart ..

Yesterday wake up , then running fever .. Having headaches that killing me . Till now , still got slight headaches .. But I still attend work as usual , cause I dont wanna make myself absence . Today is my off day .. Finally can rest at home for once .
Really very tired .. But I wont be giving up .

About relationships .. I'd not enter into any . I'll keep holding on and stay strong , for him . It's been the 3rd months since he left .. I'd been staying single for so long the very first time . And I had somehow already gotten used to being alone .. =) At least I have family and friends around me who cares .. Those past memories with him , I'll always think every now & then .. and keep rewinding them in my mind .. I think thats already more than enough to keep me going . I will wait for him , no matter what .. I'd never loved someone as much before . Never thought that his absence could cause me much agony .. Hais . I really miss him .

18 months will soon be over .. I hope ?
* waiting ; o3 mths o2 days & counting ..

~ { Friday, November 23, 2007 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Sunday, November 11, 2007
__* 4.17 am .`+
Staring into the blank ; keeping silent , is one of the habits I had start to pick up when you were gone .. Even with the company of others , my mind would wander off to nowhere . It's somehow weird not having you sticking around . Feels like some part is missing .. But trust me , Im putting in my best efforts not to show . Often laughed with my mouth hung so wide agap , there will still be the existance of sorrow within . It really sucked ..

Complicate feelings stirring up . Im just trying hard to accomodate .. And take things the easy way . That is also why , no one will get the chance to see the other side of me .

~ { Sunday, November 11, 2007 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Tuesday, November 06, 2007
__* 10.07 am .`+
Today is my off-day , and also .. Tiger's birthday . But guess it wont be a enjoyable one for him , when he's inside . Sigh . Just hope that he's okay .. "Happy Birthday ."

Yesterday straight after work , went to Cine Kbox with Jolyn . Justin & Kelvin came in and join us later on , but was only due to coincidence that we all met . The songs sung were all so saddening ; Never fails to remind me of the past ..
Well anyway , stayed there from 11 plus till 3 am .

Afterwhich , Jolyn headed back home and I went down Toa Payoh to meet Marcus .. Just reached home an hour ago . Shag . Sleepy . Troubled . Good thing , today is my rest day .. Everytime like this stay out dont sleep go ton , can die .
But overall , I did enjoy myself lahs ! (:

*Derrick jio go drink , but Im absent again .
& I was supposed to meet Xiao Bai , but I didnt go .. Sorry . Another day perhaps ?
Kelvin jio go eat supper together just now after K , but no thanks !

~ { Tuesday, November 06, 2007 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;

Saturday, November 03, 2007
__* 11.37 pm .`+
# 分开以后 ..

想喊你却没敢开口
最后只有流着泪看你走
我想问我
是否只愿意就这样放手
既然无法挽留只好接受

从今以后你要寂寞多久
谁能给予你我这般的温柔
也许是多虑了
你离开我会过得更快乐
可对于软弱的我回忆就足够

分开以后
每当想到你就会低下头
紧握着手不知过了多久
我相信你就会有一样的辛酸难受
都曾经深爱过谁
有谁能舍得

在离开你之后
想快乐也只是一种强求
一个人怎么过都是愁
懂得拥有却未必能让你为我停留
最后只剩遗憾
拉住我不放手

~ { Saturday, November 03, 2007 }
被你爱过我真的很快乐 ;